Unconditional Love ~

Unconditional Love

Wait,, What ...?  Seorang "sagitarius" ngomongin Unconditional Love kaya nya jarang banget ya guys :)) secara orang yang paling mencintai diri sendiri dan paling susah untuk berkomitmen dalam hidup. Dulu itu suka heran banget sama orang yang bener-bener bisa galau pas pacaran sampai kaya yang sudah tergila-gila gitu sama pasangan nya like they can't life without his/her partner (kalau istilah keren nya sekarang mungkin "bucin" kali ya). 

Waktu itu kalau ada teman curhat bla bla... soal pacar atau pasangan mereka,  aku tuh pasti orang yang paling rasional bahkan kadang skeptis atau lebih tepat nya judgemental sih HAHA kaya apaan sih hidup lo masa pacar lo ga bisa di hubungi aja lo cruncky kaya anak kecil gitu ga banget deh (aku bisa pastikan dulu tuh teman-teman ku pasti kesal deh, sorry guys I don't really understand itu when I'm young haha) berasa banget nih sekarang tua nya aku kalau udah ingat masa-masa muda ku yang apa-apa itu selalu ngeutamain otak dari pada hati.

But since I become a mother to a beautiful daughter it suddenly change my perspective of love yang mungkin tidak bisa di utarakan hanya lewat kata-kata. It felt so surreal to finally able to feel the unconditional love it self. No matter how mad you are they made, you just can't stay mad even for a minute. Isn't it amazing to finally realize that you can be very patient, very caring and always wiling to give the best and to always put them first before yourself. It may be easy for you guys but for me is such a huge achievement as you might know that Sagittarius is one of impatient person in the planet (lagi-lagi mengatasnamakan zodiak HAHAHA)

It feels so weird for me to finally know so many things that I think I will never knew that I'm capable of since I have my little tiny baby on my hands. Not to deny that I'm really struggling and somehow frustrated too on the beginning. If you think that baby cry a lot, yup I will clarify you that they are cry alooooootttttt! they cry for milk, for attention, and even for no reason. While so much on your hands you still find your self so in love with them in a minute they are smile and especially when they are sleeping.

Tapi yang pengen aku garis bawahi dari tulisan ku kali ini sih sebenarnya adalah proses nya. Aku yakin kalau sebagai manusia yang terbatas kan kita ga mungkin langsung bisa di tahap paling atas di dalam segala aspek kehidupan. Seperti tahap untuk bisa merasakan cinta yang sebenar-benar nya itu kan pasti kita ada melewati fase-fase dimana kita tidak mengerti akan perasaan yang kita rasakan itu sendiri sampai kita bisa bener-benar bilang wah this is it... Sama hal nya dengan ku yang baru bisa benar-benar merasakan cinta sebener nya ini tentu saja merasakan hal-hal lain yang awal nya aku ga mengerti.

So what I want to say here is, no matter what we feel the feeling is VALID AND MATTER! no need to rush to deny it or to accept it, because rushing is not always the best but to feel it self is the best way for us to understand. Also might be a simple lesson learnt from my experience is do not judge someone's feeling because you don't feel the same way as what they felt. So from that we can more empathy toward others and make our life easier and full of love. And for those who still not experience the unconditional love in their life, I just want to remind you that you are not alone and that it's totally fine. Take your time and enjoy every second of feeling you might feel now, it can be happy, sad, or even confuse but until then once you feel the unconditional love it self it will hit you differently.

Enjoy your time finding the meaning of your feeling :)